Guys, do you know?
What's the feeling of insomnia?
How long the night was?
How many tiny little bit seconds a night have?
A moment, that moment. Keep refreshing in my mind. Non-stop repeating.
I never been in that terrible mood before. Yes, NEVER EVER.
Everyone keep asking are you okay, i answered yes. What was the meaning of that yes? Sigh, comforting others?
I know what had done couldn't be undone. The moment it happened, yes, It happened. I really don't know what else I could do. Physically, I am fine. Yes really. But what about that person? The person lying in hospital suffers from the injury.
Even though in the law, I wasn't in the wrong situation. But, things happened.
Last night, I was lying on my bed. Well, how about that person? Lying in hospital and how could I been able to lie on my comfort bed to sleep? I don't deserve that. Please, just judge on me so I could feel better. At least, is something I couldn't lie to myself.
I prayed. So hard. I don't know who else I could talk with. Probably God the Father in the heaven is the one. God, Bless him, Strengthen me, I need you.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
Friday, June 3, 2011
Transition? I don't know?
Sometime, I wonder.. What would happen if everything was on it's original track? Hmm, perhaps I should use the "right" track. Probably, everything was early meant to be in the beginning. Even though the inputs might different, the route probably still the same, leading everything to this moment, the "result". Haha, just some stupid thought in my mind. Lol! Can understand what I want to express ka? Haha! Tips here. We were just ordinary human. =)
Haha! Ignore my stupid thought if u don't want to get haywire on yourself. GUYS! I been busy for weeks but I couldn't even mention any of them which I had done in the past few weeks. LOL! Just busy for being busy. Haha. Hmmm, busy for works; for my twinning program; facebook?; hanging around; and "rest"? Hahhaa. Come on, don't put the judgement on me. I just lived through the same life as yours, the "result". Get me? haha! Well, I guess everything still move on. Transition period...... Until?? Next month? Probably Sept? I don't know? hahaha! well, at least I am still here. =)
Argh. I been mumbling craps. Haha. It's 6am now. Sleepless night but blank thought. Probably it's time to rest. Night?Morning. LOL!
Haha, sorry if I bother your time to read this stupid post. Lol! Enjoy the piece of music I embed below. Probably the best I could share with u guys.
郁可唯 - 指望 MV
Haha! Ignore my stupid thought if u don't want to get haywire on yourself. GUYS! I been busy for weeks but I couldn't even mention any of them which I had done in the past few weeks. LOL! Just busy for being busy. Haha. Hmmm, busy for works; for my twinning program; facebook?; hanging around; and "rest"? Hahhaa. Come on, don't put the judgement on me. I just lived through the same life as yours, the "result". Get me? haha! Well, I guess everything still move on. Transition period...... Until?? Next month? Probably Sept? I don't know? hahaha! well, at least I am still here. =)
Argh. I been mumbling craps. Haha. It's 6am now. Sleepless night but blank thought. Probably it's time to rest. Night?Morning. LOL!
Haha, sorry if I bother your time to read this stupid post. Lol! Enjoy the piece of music I embed below. Probably the best I could share with u guys.
郁可唯 - 指望 MV
Friday, May 6, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Random & Pc Fair 22~24/4
Lol! Sorry guys, I know i know. Haha. It's been awhile that I "abandon" this blog and I think i better start update bit by pieces right now before someone going to complain to me again. Lol. Just do some update on events or stories happen recently.
Well, I started my working life again. Haha. Awww, i know. x) But I have to say, I really enjoy doing this job. Everyone are treating each other so sincere. I really fed up with the office policies. Duh! My boss treats me like a friend of himself. Although it's nothing big deal but it actually meant quite a lot for me. It gave me a warm feeling while also implant the motive to work and cooperate with him. Work till die also no regret. LOL! Oh, btw, currently I work as a IT technician with INComputer.
Pc Fair 22~24/4
Haha. Actually nothing much to write in this topic. Most of the picture tells everything. Haha. Btw, I enjoy working these 3days. Haha. Meet some new friends, tons of bullshitting. LOL! And Lots of "GOOD VIEW" Haha!! Btw, guess who i met! LOL! May Wong! I didn't even realize she already back from Brisbane. Haha. Glad to see u la. x)
Most of the photos were taken by one of the co-worker. Haha. I just grab directly from her facebook album.
I just did some minor updates only la. Haha Most of the photos are still with them. I try to get and upload it here. Please be patient ah! Peace out. x)
Well, I started my working life again. Haha. Awww, i know. x) But I have to say, I really enjoy doing this job. Everyone are treating each other so sincere. I really fed up with the office policies. Duh! My boss treats me like a friend of himself. Although it's nothing big deal but it actually meant quite a lot for me. It gave me a warm feeling while also implant the motive to work and cooperate with him. Work till die also no regret. LOL! Oh, btw, currently I work as a IT technician with INComputer.
Pc Fair 22~24/4
Haha. Actually nothing much to write in this topic. Most of the picture tells everything. Haha. Btw, I enjoy working these 3days. Haha. Meet some new friends, tons of bullshitting. LOL! And Lots of "GOOD VIEW" Haha!! Btw, guess who i met! LOL! May Wong! I didn't even realize she already back from Brisbane. Haha. Glad to see u la. x)
Most of the photos were taken by one of the co-worker. Haha. I just grab directly from her facebook album.
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| Our Store. There were four of it. =) |
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| I was arranged in this team. x) |
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| LOL! I think i was helping to test out the external hdd while promoting to the customer. Haha! Kepo go to other ppl place. |
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| Tired tired! Lol. Gimme a break. No photo taking!! Haha |
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| The whole crew. Pleasure to meet them. x) Haha. Thanks u guys for treating me so sincerely. Love u guys. |
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| Boss chia makan! Haha. I was late for this. |
I just did some minor updates only la. Haha Most of the photos are still with them. I try to get and upload it here. Please be patient ah! Peace out. x)
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
24~28/2 kk trip
Sorry for the late update guys. Haha. I know i know, i already doing it now and stop rushing me. Lol. I think i start off with the camp i just joined lately. The location was in kk. Somewhere kampung place at suburb of the town. Just sharing some photos to u guys i think should be enough. x)
26/2
After cleaning up and finish our lunch, we head toward the river and continue with water games.
Okay, here the harderst game come! Haha. Trying to climb the little hike with full of soap. Grr! Lol.
27/2
Sorry guys. The picture of 27/2 still in the hand of my friend. I still waiting he upload them. Lol. I just chinchai say the activities for today bah. Haha. Please be patient for the photos.
Jungle trekking in the morning. After few hrs of suffering, finally we reached the place we have to do the cooking ourself. We have to collected the dried stick and leaf to make fire. Use stones to build our stove. Lol. Not as easy as it look! Especially the fire part. After awhile, finally the chicken is cooked!! Lol. Took us awhile just to handle the chicken meat. Lol. After lunch, we raft back to the camp. Exhausted + muscle cramp! haha.
28/2
Camp finish le. But we still left plenty of time so we decided to go pulau pulau of kk! haha. Pictures' here.
Back to kk around 4pm then head straight to airport. x)
24/2 ~ 25/2
Reached kk terminal 2 airport at the late night of 24/2. So didn't do much on shopping, just bought some cup mee to fill up my stomach. I still remember that night Jeremy couldn't sleep well just because of the water dropping down from the air-con. Keep laughing at him. Haha.
Okay, kk touring trip started the next day. We went to center point of kk and suria sabah. Didn't took much of the picture at this part. Around 3pm, we departed to the camping place. I was totally shocked at the place i gonna sleep. Lol. Really out of my imagination. I will show u later in the pic. I think i just add the caption with the picture la. =)
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| A backdrop near suria sabah. Still got alot of them but i didn't take them down. haha. |
1st day of the camp. After short brief, we started off with the obstacle games. Then, water game at side of river in the afternoon.
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| V rope The rope is tie in a v shaped, just start off and reach another end. Quite easy me. x) Did u see me? haha. Getting ready for challenging. haha. |
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| Spider web crawling. Easy one la. Haha. |
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| Lol. I forget what is the name of this game le. Haha. That stick! Got 16ft height!!! Quite tough la this game. Haha. Check out the 2nd pic! Phail la Jeremy! haha |
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| Lining Rope. Not quite hard but the most exhausting one. I spent most of my energy here. Start off with one end and reach another end without touching the ground then win. Not as easy as it look. Beware! haha. |
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| Balancing bamboo Pretty easy for me but not him. Haha. He fall for 4 times. Lol! |
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| Ground crawling? Just crawl over w/o touching the bamboo for the win. Easy one. x) |
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| Dark hole. Lol. Go in, climb out urself. Not easy to climb. The side of the tong quite smooth. Luckily i can hoop high enough to reach the top of it if not confirm stuck inside. Lol! |
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| Tarzan Rope Lol. Easy for me la. Haha. Let see Jeremy fall into mud. LOL! |
Okay, here the harderst game come! Haha. Trying to climb the little hike with full of soap. Grr! Lol.
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| Building up the man ladder and i was told to climb up and grab people from the top of it. U can see the soap is still there! Lol! |
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| Fellow members starting to climb one by one. I was up there! x) |
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| It's not easy. She keep falling. |
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| After piece of hard work! haha. Only the last guys we can't make it. He's just too heavy! lol!! |
27/2
Sorry guys. The picture of 27/2 still in the hand of my friend. I still waiting he upload them. Lol. I just chinchai say the activities for today bah. Haha. Please be patient for the photos.
Jungle trekking in the morning. After few hrs of suffering, finally we reached the place we have to do the cooking ourself. We have to collected the dried stick and leaf to make fire. Use stones to build our stove. Lol. Not as easy as it look! Especially the fire part. After awhile, finally the chicken is cooked!! Lol. Took us awhile just to handle the chicken meat. Lol. After lunch, we raft back to the camp. Exhausted + muscle cramp! haha.
28/2
Camp finish le. But we still left plenty of time so we decided to go pulau pulau of kk! haha. Pictures' here.
Back to kk around 4pm then head straight to airport. x)
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Random
Aww. I am so random now. Lol! Just simple update when times in between my last post until now. Haha. Erm wait ah. Let me think what should i type 1st. Haha!
Okay, I think i start off with Ingping B'day celebration bah. Hmmmm. Oh gosh! when was it? 27/28? I think it's either both of them. haha. Or 29th? LOL! Hmm, just a simple dinner with ingping and add on extra special surprise and birthday gift to her. Haha. Too bad we forget to take group photo. Stupid david didn't remind me. Lol! Had enjoyed so much. It was actually an official farewell dinner for our dearest friend. She's going to brisbane. Sniff x'( Haha. Anyway, let pray hard for her in her studies and have a bright future. x)
CNY!
Lol. I think most of u ppl know I Sibu "Lan". Haha. Yeap, i went back Sibu for my cny as usual. Lol! Meet my dearest grandmom. She still gorgeous like the past. x) Hahaha! Had gathering with my cousins too. Lol! I think i did took some photo but it wasn't at me here. Lol. I try to get it and upload to here. :) CNY DINNER! hahaha. Our cny dinner was just too great for me. lol. I loved sibu's food. Hahha! especially kampua. hahaa. We had it at my 2nd uncle's house. 4 tables of FOOD! Can u believe it? haha. Big family bah. Lol! Well, firecrack-ing of course after the dinner. Haha. Enjoyed it alot. x)
Back Miri on 5th of Feb.
Tuan Bai-ing with friends on that week. So tiring. haha. Drive until pengsan. Lol! But is a pleasure to hang out with them. Of course there was some crashing of the event and i am really sorry if i can't make it. Haha! I didn't meant to. x)
Last and probably the recent one. Haha. I'll do it in chinese. x)
心情
你知道吗？
只有你
才能牵动着我的心情
也只有你
才能让我不断压抑着自己
唯独你
能让我冰冻的心情燃起难耐的烈火
也能让我此刻的心情顿时跌入深坑
我在想你了
但我可以隐约的感觉到，你的那个他 不是我
记得幸福吧 戴上我的祝福！x)
Okay, I think i start off with Ingping B'day celebration bah. Hmmmm. Oh gosh! when was it? 27/28? I think it's either both of them. haha. Or 29th? LOL! Hmm, just a simple dinner with ingping and add on extra special surprise and birthday gift to her. Haha. Too bad we forget to take group photo. Stupid david didn't remind me. Lol! Had enjoyed so much. It was actually an official farewell dinner for our dearest friend. She's going to brisbane. Sniff x'( Haha. Anyway, let pray hard for her in her studies and have a bright future. x)
CNY!
Lol. I think most of u ppl know I Sibu "Lan". Haha. Yeap, i went back Sibu for my cny as usual. Lol! Meet my dearest grandmom. She still gorgeous like the past. x) Hahaha! Had gathering with my cousins too. Lol! I think i did took some photo but it wasn't at me here. Lol. I try to get it and upload to here. :) CNY DINNER! hahaha. Our cny dinner was just too great for me. lol. I loved sibu's food. Hahha! especially kampua. hahaa. We had it at my 2nd uncle's house. 4 tables of FOOD! Can u believe it? haha. Big family bah. Lol! Well, firecrack-ing of course after the dinner. Haha. Enjoyed it alot. x)
Back Miri on 5th of Feb.
Tuan Bai-ing with friends on that week. So tiring. haha. Drive until pengsan. Lol! But is a pleasure to hang out with them. Of course there was some crashing of the event and i am really sorry if i can't make it. Haha! I didn't meant to. x)
Last and probably the recent one. Haha. I'll do it in chinese. x)
心情
你知道吗？
只有你
才能牵动着我的心情
也只有你
才能让我不断压抑着自己
唯独你
能让我冰冻的心情燃起难耐的烈火
也能让我此刻的心情顿时跌入深坑
我在想你了
但我可以隐约的感觉到，你的那个他 不是我
记得幸福吧 戴上我的祝福！x)
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Recently
Lol guys. Sorry it's been awhile i didn't update. Haha. Maybe just a short update about what and where i had been since last december until now. Haha.
December
KL trips with Roger and Matt gang. Lol! 14 until 25 december. Lol. Actually our flight on return was on the 21st of december. But we missed our flight on that days. Thanks to Roger special effort. Lol. No choice, we had to flew back on the christmas night. Stay up christmas' eve in KL. Haha. Dinner with Luffy's families at Thai cuisine. Erm, what else? Oh, we also went to Sunway Lagoon. Didn't took much picture in this trip. Haha. Erm, wonderful trip i can say. Except for the funny missed flight thingy. =.=
Jan
Nothing pretty much happen in Jan. Haha. Just alot of gathering. Haha. Form 5 gang, band gang, Roger + HH gang. Haha. I also resigned from my previous company. Too hectic for me i guess. Probably cny mood. Lol! Hey! Jan still haven end yet. haha! Stay tune for what gonna happen. x)
Just a simple and short update for u guys. Haha.
December
KL trips with Roger and Matt gang. Lol! 14 until 25 december. Lol. Actually our flight on return was on the 21st of december. But we missed our flight on that days. Thanks to Roger special effort. Lol. No choice, we had to flew back on the christmas night. Stay up christmas' eve in KL. Haha. Dinner with Luffy's families at Thai cuisine. Erm, what else? Oh, we also went to Sunway Lagoon. Didn't took much picture in this trip. Haha. Erm, wonderful trip i can say. Except for the funny missed flight thingy. =.=
Jan
Nothing pretty much happen in Jan. Haha. Just alot of gathering. Haha. Form 5 gang, band gang, Roger + HH gang. Haha. I also resigned from my previous company. Too hectic for me i guess. Probably cny mood. Lol! Hey! Jan still haven end yet. haha! Stay tune for what gonna happen. x)
Just a simple and short update for u guys. Haha.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
滴答滴答
正面而来的压力还是来了吗？
不出所料，果然还是波涛汹涌地冲击了过来。
此时此刻的心情真是难受得让人透不过气来！
心伤心透了，疼得像被斯开了两半，狠心地将另一半拉开了。
但虽如此，那句埋藏在心底里的话，就继续地藏吧。
时间真的是好狠心，不留情面一步步逼近，
但你知道吗？
我所渴望的一切，其实真的不难，
我不想把爱的枷锁和压力压在你身上，
只渴望见到你的笑容，就已足够将一切画上个等号。
你知道吗？
我其实
不是不爱了，更不是累了，
而是
太爱了
不出所料，果然还是波涛汹涌地冲击了过来。
此时此刻的心情真是难受得让人透不过气来！
心伤心透了，疼得像被斯开了两半，狠心地将另一半拉开了。
但虽如此，那句埋藏在心底里的话，就继续地藏吧。
时间真的是好狠心，不留情面一步步逼近，
但你知道吗？
我所渴望的一切，其实真的不难，
我不想把爱的枷锁和压力压在你身上，
只渴望见到你的笑容，就已足够将一切画上个等号。
你知道吗？
我其实
不是不爱了，更不是累了，
而是
太爱了
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Screwed up
I did something.
Something that deadly enough to kill everything.
Regretting doesn't help much.
Probably remain silent after my apology would helps.
I had been stuck in it.
With complicated feelings.
I been trying to fix it.
Look like it doesn't work out pretty well.
Probably the least things i could was stay away.
Stay away from who that meant a lot to me.
Something that deadly enough to kill everything.
Regretting doesn't help much.
Probably remain silent after my apology would helps.
I had been stuck in it.
With complicated feelings.
I been trying to fix it.
Look like it doesn't work out pretty well.
Probably the least things i could was stay away.
Stay away from who that meant a lot to me.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
My workplace ;)
Hey guys, sorry for the delay. I been busy for weeks. Haha. But at least i done the update. I had already uploaded most of the photos and some of u guys might already had seen. Haha. So i guess i just simply brief through wadever is there. =D
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| Office view. Left behind red high back chair is my seat. =) |
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| View from my quarters. |
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| Outside view of my office. This is the place to store timber wood for furniture line use. Also my job to looking after those wood and in-charge in distributing the wood to those carpenter. |
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| Haha. This guy here. His name is forklift. My toy. Lol! Ini guna untuk angkat kayu. Haha. Maximum can hold up to 3 tonnes of timber. |
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| Trunk that prepared to be cut and saw into smaller pieces. |
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| A lot different of wood inside. Mostly red wood is the best type due to it's high density. While black wood is the hardest wood. Sometime can't even nailed into the black wood. |
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| Sawing machine. |
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| View of logpond site. |
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| Sawmill site timber storage. |
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| Furniture site. Manufacturing furniture, door frame and panel. |
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| Quarters' view. Logpond site. |
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| Inside view of my quarters. |
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| My bed. Haha. Ignore the messiness of the table and my bag. Lol. |
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| My room. Sharing with another co-worker. |
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| Bathroom. Not so good as it look. Haha. |
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| Bathrooms. |
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| Best moment. Lol! Punch card and go home. |
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Saturday, September 25, 2010
有的没的
好久没上网了,哈哈
今天才从kuala 那里下来美里，顺便回家一趟..
刚买了celcom 的 broadband, 酱以后就可以比较长online 咯，哈哈
可能在我的office 就可以了, 赫赫
嗯, 好想好想问候你过得好吗?
也好想好想看你灿烂的笑一次..
世事真的常常都不如人愿.. 我也从来不怨任何人事..
很多很多事我真的想说,
而且都想说很久了,
久到思念而放在心里已成习惯,
只是我真的很不擅长寻找适当的时机...
好希望上天能安排再次的机会;
也许不是现在, 也许在不久的未来也说不定;
可能还是等你忙完吧..
打从一开始, 我都依然记得当初的诺言,
也都一直好好的保存我的心,
坦若真的欲罢不能，那我就明白了...
但若我依然有幸借出被依靠的肩膀，那就死都不放了..
其实这些真的都是有的没的啦..
真正还是希望你过上好的生活，怕我自己只会带来更多的烦扰..
还是先专心应付比较重要的事先吧..
今天才从kuala 那里下来美里，顺便回家一趟..
刚买了celcom 的 broadband, 酱以后就可以比较长online 咯，哈哈
可能在我的office 就可以了, 赫赫
嗯, 好想好想问候你过得好吗?
也好想好想看你灿烂的笑一次..
世事真的常常都不如人愿.. 我也从来不怨任何人事..
很多很多事我真的想说,
而且都想说很久了,
久到思念而放在心里已成习惯,
只是我真的很不擅长寻找适当的时机...
好希望上天能安排再次的机会;
也许不是现在, 也许在不久的未来也说不定;
可能还是等你忙完吧..
打从一开始, 我都依然记得当初的诺言,
也都一直好好的保存我的心,
坦若真的欲罢不能，那我就明白了...
但若我依然有幸借出被依靠的肩膀，那就死都不放了..
其实这些真的都是有的没的啦..
真正还是希望你过上好的生活，怕我自己只会带来更多的烦扰..
还是先专心应付比较重要的事先吧..
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
最近
目前跟了shin yang 公司打工，在kuala baram 上面, 交通也不是很方便, 可能的话也许1星期才会回家一次吧.
最近也没什么发生咯, 不过听说这个礼拜天好像有毕业典礼什么的, 哈哈. 如果顺利的话, 我应该会出现吧, 不过没保证的啊, 呵呵.
嗯, 也没什么事了啦, 哈哈, 考 pmr 和spm 的，要努力啊！哈哈，别考到fail 去！
最近也没什么发生咯, 不过听说这个礼拜天好像有毕业典礼什么的, 哈哈. 如果顺利的话, 我应该会出现吧, 不过没保证的啊, 呵呵.
嗯, 也没什么事了啦, 哈哈, 考 pmr 和spm 的，要努力啊！哈哈，别考到fail 去！
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Famine 30
Sorry for the delay guys.. Haha.. Nothing special happen recently until i joined famine 30.. LOL.. Just hanging out with friends limteh..
Seriously, i don't know why i decided to join this.. LOL.. Already starting to regret at the 1st few hour when i was inside.. LOL.. Now i do realize 1 thing.. Hunger was not the part of suffering, poor children doesn't suffer from hunger, The TRUE secret behind it was, Time goes really slow when u were in staving mode.. LOL..
The camp was quite disappointing la.. Everything seem so disorganized.. We have to wait more than 1 hrs just to wait the organizing team explaining and brief through the game.. Could u imagine how long was that? And plus ur stomach snoring all the time and make the time pass REAL slow..
But some parts were still quite okay la.. The lenglui part.. LOL..
Erm.. Wad else? Oh.. I haven't bath for more than 30 hrs.. LOL.. Let me count.. Hmmm.. From Friday night untill just now 8pm.. LOL.. More than 40++hrs.. Haha.. But dun worry, i do still smell fresh..
I got take some photo too but it was not in my camera.. So, i guess i just have to wait them sent it to me den i upload it here for u guys to have a look on me.. xD which did not bath for 40hrs plus..
Picture~~ =D
Seriously, i don't know why i decided to join this.. LOL.. Already starting to regret at the 1st few hour when i was inside.. LOL.. Now i do realize 1 thing.. Hunger was not the part of suffering, poor children doesn't suffer from hunger, The TRUE secret behind it was, Time goes really slow when u were in staving mode.. LOL..
The camp was quite disappointing la.. Everything seem so disorganized.. We have to wait more than 1 hrs just to wait the organizing team explaining and brief through the game.. Could u imagine how long was that? And plus ur stomach snoring all the time and make the time pass REAL slow..
But some parts were still quite okay la.. The lenglui part.. LOL..
Erm.. Wad else? Oh.. I haven't bath for more than 30 hrs.. LOL.. Let me count.. Hmmm.. From Friday night untill just now 8pm.. LOL.. More than 40++hrs.. Haha.. But dun worry, i do still smell fresh..
I got take some photo too but it was not in my camera.. So, i guess i just have to wait them sent it to me den i upload it here for u guys to have a look on me.. xD which did not bath for 40hrs plus..
Picture~~ =D
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| 40+ hrs didn't take a bath. So, hair all messy.. LOL. |
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